After a change of plans, I ended up somewhere I would not have normally been, around people I may not have met and a conversation that may have never occurred. Due to a left turn, I had the most interesting dialogue and it inspired my train of thought.  I was asked, point blank, "Michelle, what do you REALLY want to do... like REALLY?"

I thought about it for a moment and responded, with confidence... and with no hesitation the response was: "THEN DO IT".

I cannot seem to forget about this conversation and it makes perfect sense to me. We tend to forget about what we really want out of life RIGHT NOW and tend to secumb to what our instincts tell us will be best for the future. As if true passion and desire are buried so deep it takes a lot to execute let alone verbalize. As if we have become so caught up with what we want out of our future that we forget to do what we want out of today. Not living for the present because the future is more important. What I am NOT saying is to wake up tomorrow and make some irrational decision that could be detrimental to any kind of future you may have. Nor am I saying to be kooky and mindless, moving forward, making non-sensical decisions for the rest of your life. I was inspired to consider my, short-term, aspirations or merely make some in order to create a more magical present. 

The future is mine, it is not going anywhere and the scary thing about the future is that it will always be unattainable. Think about it? No matter what, the future will always be lingering... lingering in our thoughts, dreams, plans, purpose and no matter how old you are or what time of day it is there is always the question of what will the future bring?

I guess no one has asked me what I want to do, point blank, and actually cared about my response. As if whatever my answer was, I knew, there would not be any judgement or negativity. My answer was meant to be honest, no matter how unattainable it seemed at that moment in time. I could answer freely, like a bird flies freely through the sky with no boundaries, dead-ends or finish lines. I felt like a weight was lifted from my shoulders and I could say anything I wanted and positive reinforcement would follow.

The pressure I continue to feel regarding the present and future seems so frivolous, as if those around me pre-judge when judgement is not needed. Ask questions when my answer is not acceptable or is merely deflected with opinions and suggestions. Maybe it is my genetic makeup, my past which has molded my present or just my own uniqueness but I see things in a way that only I can see. I want things out of life that may not make sense, but they make sense to me and the outcomes of my decisions have yet to disappoint. And now... once again, I am at a turning point and have to ask myself- What do YOU really want?