Infatuated with a Physchological Addiction...

Euphoria. Infatuation. An obsession. Psychological dependence. Recurring compulsion to engage in something to maintain individual health, lifestyle or a certain mental state. Constant feelings of withdrawal. Whether you're racing to the nearest Starbucks for that daily caffeine fix, popping pills to take off the edge, ease your mood, stifle hunger or throwing back a cocktail or two after a long day, everyday- we all have our thing(s). It is amazing to think about all the things in life that we have the tendency to abuse without consciously abusing them. What starts as a small obsession, turns into a lifestyle and ultimately becomes an addiction.

Questionable, although interesting, how one becomes so infatuated with one thing while another would barely blink twice at the thought. Is it the mass marketing of a simple logo, take Starbucks for example, that has some how managed to become an international must have? Or the plethora of skinny-ass models who dominate the runway, magazine covers and the media? How about the easy access to prescription drugs that become next to impossible to live without after what was suppose to "A" prescription. Then of course there is society's love for alcohol, which is merely an innate desire to experience an altered state of mind. Exploring this concept deeper brings up a simplistic idea: people love euphoria. A part of our human culture, it is purely human nature. The idea of a euphoric way of life and the yearning to fill a personal void that is believed to result in perfection, but, really, can be a continuous cycle turning into an unsatisfied way of life.

I know there are things in my world that seem simultaneously attainable yet realistically unattainable. We live to achieve a certain image whether it be physical or emotional and is unsettling to think about how obsessed we can get with the little things or the big. A want becomes a need which becomes a must have and so on and so forth.

Take a moment and think about all the things in life that you could not be without and then slap on all things you desire about your physical state and way of life, finally close your eyes and define your own euphoric state of being...Is it attainable? Is it you?

Maybe we take our own individuality for granted and therefore can ultimately not appreciate the amazing-ness that each has to offer. That life has evolved into an obsession-filled, money making, perfection seeking, addiction crazed, living for the good, the bad and unnecessary that we've let simplicity fade away. We have let our culture, as a whole, turn into an individual journey of make believe. It is those nights alone [at home] that a glimpse of simplicity is brought back, a sort of sneak peak, until the first glass of wine is poured. Not to be confused with the natural, healthy desire for personal euphoria but the blurry vision that has become of natural human entities.

The simple life, although also not entirely attainable, should not be overlooked. We all have purpose and desires, passions and fears, reasons for the way we live and regrets for what may have been. Life should be embraced and allow oneself to be conscious of all the little things (and big) that have made us who we are. There is nothing wrong with the desire for a euphoric state, an altered state of mind, that daily caffeine fix, or whatever your thing(s) may be. Lets just not forget that there is value in pure individuality and at the end of the day embrace it and make sure to embrace YOU....... and every once in awhile without that glass of wine.

As the mind finally clears and any leftover haziness has passed...it is a perfect time to just be. 
To reflect on the basics of the past and what is going to be. To scan over ever the so calculated, yet somewhat dramatic, resolutions made and just smile. Smile because you know deep down inside not all of them will be fulfilled and some have not even surfaced. Smirk because there is a small piece of you that yearns to inhale the smoke of a cigarette or savor one last moundful of cake...and laugh because as hard as we try, or want to be, we are not perfect nor ever will be. It is the imperfections in life that help create who were are, center ourselves and lead us in a direction we are meant to travel. Embracing each imperfection helps to make changes never thought possible. Without the downfall of what was, what is would never be. I strive to continue on a path that embraces the imperfect while perfecting what is...as long as there is faith, love and laughter the rest will come. 


I read the quote above and was so intrigued - Take a chance...because you never know how absolutely perfect something could turn out to be. Being on the path of change, it is amazing to reflect that change comes with chance...the chances we take are what bring about change. Scary- yes but not being scared only delays a change and cradles what is. So just as we start to see change evolve is when the focus is shifted to chance(s) which is what we really never take enough of. 


Happy 2012...challenge your limits. Take a chance. Do something that was never expected- whether it's a splash of red, thin line of blue or going nuts, creating an entirely new masterpiece morphed from the drops of color left behind. It is the beginning of another new year, a clean slate, and now more then ever it is time to stop reflecting and start exploring. Happy 2012- Make it count. Make it last. Make it UN-fucking believable!